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So, Sherry and I created a Myspace for our lovely lives.  We're sharing the log-in and so far its pretty cool.  You guys should definitely add us, because you know our lives are like soap operas.  www.myspace.com/trialsandtribulationsjlsb.  Its absolutely great.  Don't forget to leave us some comments!

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So life in the past few months = very hard, difficult, upsetting.  January 13th my grandpa died.  It was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through.  I loved him a lot, in fact I would probably go as far as to say he was my favorite grandpa (Granted I've only got two, but Grandpa Layne died when I was young and it just didn't hurt as bad).  Grandma couldn't handle it, and refused to go to the funeral.  I think that hurt everyone in the family.  A lot of them had doubts that she trully loved him as much as she swears she did, but I Think she just wanted to remember Papa as the way he was, and not how he lived the end of his life.  I had to be the strong one for mom, while she had to be the strong one for all of the other kids. 

I've never realized jsut how much it hurts to lose someone you love like that.  I mean, I know eventually I'll see him again, in heaven, but that just seems like such a far time from now.  It also makes you think "oh my god, my mom and dad arent far from that age."  I know its bad to dwell on that kind of thing, but I keep thinking what if thats the last time we'll get to do this.  Its seriously starting to bother me, and I don't know how to stop it. 

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So things have been extremely hard the last couple of weeks.  On NOvember 19th, Sara died.  It was the hardest thing in the world to hear mom say "omg no tell me its not true" and see her start crying.  Sara had a full and happy life ahead of her.  She didn't deserve to die and she surely didn't deserve to lose everything.  All of the stuff she doenst get to do now....like graduate, senior prom, senior year,  college.  Its hard to think of all that stuff.  I keep thinking about how long I've known her.  The first time I'd met Sara she was a 4 year old showing at Spencer.  ......

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Sunday was a very hard day.  At about 9 in the morning Roger (my cousin) called and informed my mother that Sara had died the day before.  I'm sure a lot of you have heard me talk about Sara and her situation before, but if you haven't, here goes.  Sara was a wonderful, charming, and beautiful 17 year old girl that I've known for years.  Probably for about 10 years if I think about it.  She and her sister showed against me in Racking and Pacing classes at a lot of the local horse shows, as well as being members of the same 4-H club.  Last May, Sara was diagnosed with luekemia, and deteriorated quickly.  The last time any of us had any news on Sara, she'd gone blind and been paralyzed from masses located on her spinal cord and brain.  On Saturday the 19th, she passed away a little after 2 surrounded by her family. 

Its so hard to realize that this year at the fair, we won't see Sara's beautiful face.  I can only imagine the pain that Jane, Gary and Nickie are going through and it hurts to think that they've lost an angel.  And that is exactly what Sara was.  I don't think I ever heard that child say anything negative about anyone.  She was always smiling, even after being diagnosed with cancer.  If any of you do read this, please keep her family in your thoughts and prayers.  At a time like this, I'm sure they need all of it that they can get.

An excerpt from www.rmhorse.com:

It is with deep regret and sorrow that we must inform the RMHA Family of the passing of young Sara Gwisdalla.  Sara died peacefully on Saturday, November 19, 2005 shortly after 2:00 PM EST at the Cleveland Clinic surrounded by her loving family.Though death has removed Sara from our midst, her tremendous courage and spirit will abide with us all for many years to come. We all unite now with prayers and love for the Gwisdalla family.

A memorial service will be held at 2:00 Sunday, Nov. 27th, at The Cavalery United Methodist Church at 205 Court St., Ripley, WV 25271

In lieu of flowers the family request contributions to the Sara Gwisdalla Account.

Sara Gwisdalla Fund Acct. 0069424802

Attn: Becky Mullins

United Bank

113 North St.

P.O. Box 670

Ripley, WV 25271

...and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be anymore pain: for the former things are passed away.

Rev. 21:4

Gary Neidert and family

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So, I just learned some very disturbing news.  Sara is blind.  Its so strange to think of this little girl that I've known forever, as blind.  She's so beautiful, and she has such a full life ahead of her, that I can't imagine her as anything but this outgoing girl who was constantly running around at the fair, or dragging Nickie through something.  It is so depressing.  I just wish everything was back to normal.  Like,, four years ago.  When she didnt ahve any symptoms. 

Mom called Joy this evening and was asking about everyone out there when Joy dropped the news.  Mom was devastated and told me as soon as I got home.  I've been literally crying for the last hour.  I don't understand the ways of God sometimes, and I probably never will. 

Sara,  We will always love you and keep you in our hearts.  As long as you're going to fight, we'll be right there beside you.